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and property of Djinn and are copyright (c) 2005 by Djinn. This story is Rated
R.
Water, Water Everywhere
by Djinn
The water laps at your feet
as you sit and watch the waves roll onto the beach. It's quiet here,
warm and peaceful. As it always is
whenever you come home to your island--to your paradise. The breeze tugs gently at the light shift
you've put on in place of your uniform.
You relish the unfettered feel of it, the looseness and the cool brush
of the fabric. Your hair floats
unrestrained; no earrings hang from your lobes.
They lie on your dresser next to the lasso and the tiara. You are free here,
feel like just another woman among many exceptional women.
"Diana," you hear
from far behind you. You turn and wave
at Mala and see her lift her hand in welcome. You will spend time with her later, after the
meal you'll share with your mother. It
is how your first day back always goes.
It is why you love it here on
Themyscira. Your days have a certain
rhythm, a sameness that is comforting after the manic pace of the League.
You can predict this day to
the minute. You will sit here in the sun
for about half an hour before the peace of the island claims you and you lay
back, sleeping happily. The sun will
move, and the tree behind you will shade you, keeping you comfortable as you
doze the afternoon away. No one will
disturb you. No one will call to you
once you lie down. You will awaken with
the setting of the sun, turn so you can watch it disappear into the sea. Then you will go in and change for
dinner.
The meal will be lively; your
mother will smile frequently. She is
always glad to have you back. The food
will be exquisite--no one cooks like Themate and Floris. Then, when
dinner is over, you will hurry out of the palace and make your way down to the
beach, where Mala and the others who have been your
closest friends all your life will be waiting.
You will drink wine and laugh and tell tales and listen to their
stories. And then you will creep back
into the palace--as if your mother does not know where you have been--and fall
asleep in your own bed.
That will be your first day
back. You already feel sleepy, already
feel ready to lie back just a little bit early and fall asleep in the comforting
sunshine. You close your eyes, ready to
let Wonder Woman go while you revert to a fairy princess who falls into an
enchanted sleep.
"Hello." A male voice? And from in front of you--but only water lies
in front of you.
Your eyes fly open. This is not part of your first day back. There should be no interruption, no man who
says "Hello" in such a husky way.
He is floating near your
feet, a wary grin on his face. His
blonde hair shines in the sun.
"Arthur. What's wrong?
Did something happen to the Tower?
Is that why you're here in person?"
He waves your worry away, his
casual gesture sending beads of water to land on your legs in a fall of
warmth. "There's nothing
wrong. I..."
You move closer, unused to an
Arthur so reticent, an Arthur who blushes.
His hand closes on your foot,
the touch gentle--and sensuous.
You try not to notice. "Is this about the other day?"
He nods. His normal arrogance is gone. He does not meet your eyes. "You never said if it would stay between
us."
It is a lie. You did say it, just not in words. You are unsure what to say to him, decide to
go light. "I put it in my log
report. Batman corrected some
grammar. Kal wants a word with
you."
His head jerks up--he is not
amused. His hand tightens on your foot,
the touch no longer sensual. Now it
feels...desperate.
"I'm kidding,
Arthur."
"I did not mean to say
those things that day." He lets go
of you, begins to float away, back out to sea.
You do not think; you simply
follow him into the water, swimming until his foot is close enough to grab it
the way he held you.
He jerks away, turning on you
in a flash, like a moray eel doubling back on an attacker. "I do not even like you."
You just smile. "Yes, you do."
He looks down, and you realize that your soaked shift has become heavy and
virtually transparent as it drapes tightly over your body. You try too late to cover yourself, and he
looks away, but then his eyes are drawn back to you. You give up, let your hands drop, let him see
what he claims to want so desperately.
You are not sure why you do
it. You are not like this.
He does not look away, just
whispers, "I do not know why you move me."
You laugh, and he finally
pulls his attention away from your body.
"I think my charms are
rather obvious at the moment." You
move closer to him, touch his cheek the way you did in the water the day he
first told you he wanted you. "It's
just lust, Arthur."
"Just?"
You nod. You have grown accustomed to the looks you
get, the feelings you can see rushing over faces wherever you go. You sometimes wish you were not quite so
striking, not such an object of desire.
Your life is often lonely, and to be so desired and still lonely seems a
cruel irony.
"I am not sure that it
is." He moves closer, his gaze
settling on your face this time. His
eyes glow turquoise in the bright sun, and his hair gleams like the gold of
your lasso. "I...understand
you. You understand me."
"You said we did
not."
"I said we had little in
common. That just because we are both
royal does not mean we are alike. But I
did not say I did not comprehend who you are, that you do not understand
me."
"We're friends,
Arthur."
"Yes." He pulls you close, and you notice that he
has switched the harpoon for a glove.
"You came to do
this," you say as he moves in to kiss you.
If he were out patrolling his kingdom, he would have had his weapon with
him.
His lips taste salty, his
beard feels like the gentle brush of seaweed, and his skin smells of blue water. When he pulls you closer, you feel as if you
are surrounded by seafoam and crashing waves.
He finally draws away. "I should go."
You touch his hair, so soft
and slick. It feels good against your
palm.
Closing his eyes at your
touch, he says, "I will return tonight.
When the moon is up."
"I will not be back out
here."
He touches your lips with his
fingers. "You lie." He looks over at where you will sit with Mala and the others.
"You've watched
me?" You know Kal watches you more
than he should. Bruce
too probably. But it is somehow
unsettling to think that Arthur has been peering at you as well.
"I do not know why I
want you so badly. Why I have wanted you
so badly for such a long time." He
stares at you hard, looks as if he wishes he could push you underwater and not
let you up until you drown. "I just
know I do."
Then he flips backwards, a
human dolphin rushing away. He
disappears under the water, away from you.
Back out to sea.
Climbing out of the water,
you sit back down, letting the sun dry you.
You try to recapture the peace of the island, try to recapture your
day. But it is gone. The day passes, the tree shades you, and then
the sea swallows the sun, but you do not sleep, you
are not relaxed. You sit, hands
clenched, and stare out at the sea, wondering how Arthur knows you will go to
him when the moon is up.
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Mala and the others wave as you pretend to sneak back into
the palace. Once you are out of sight of
them, you move lightly around dwellings and temples and the other buildings of
Themyscira until you come out at a place far away from the beach where Arthur
came to shore.
If he wants you, he will have
to find you.
You wade out to the rock that
Phillipus calls the Sirens' Stone. Sitting on it, you let the breeze blow the
sleeves of your dress around you--the bottom of the dress is wet and sticks to
your legs.
"Ah. How archetypal you look." He rises out of the sea like some male
version of Aphrodite. His hair glows
silver in the moonlight. His eyes seem
dark now; you suppose your own do too.
"My
lord king."
"Do not mock me,
Diana."
"I will do as I
please. And perhaps here you should call
me your highness."
He only laughs, pushing
himself easily onto the Sirens' Stone, crouching in front of you like a hunter
surveying his prey. You have a sudden
urge to push him off the rock, to send him flying out to sea.
"You are afraid,"
he says.
"I am afraid I've gone
crazy. Coming out
here." You start to get up,
but he captures your wrist pulling you back down.
You look at him--wondering
for a moment if he plans to try to take what you have not yet decided you will
give him.
Then he lets you go. "Don't be afraid of me."
"I'm not afraid of
you."
"You're afraid of
something."
You sit back, then lie back, wondering why you do this, why you taunt him
with your body. "I am afraid of me,
Arthur."
He lies down next to you, on
his side, his hand slowly caressing you, starting at your cheek, running down
your neck, to your chest. He lingers
there a long time.
You groan. The sound makes you close your eyes.
"You are afraid of
this," he says. "Of what you
become when I touch you."
"I am afraid of why I'm
letting you touch me."
He pulls away as if you have
burned him. Sitting up, he stares out to
sea, and you hear a long sigh escape him.
"You can't have him."
"I didn't say--"
"--You don't have
to. We've been friends too long for me
not to see what's going on." He
turns to look at you, and you can see his compassion for you as his friend
warring with a less sympathetic emotion.
"He's married, Diana."
"So are you," you
say, smiling at him.
"I am not with my
wife. I do not sleep with my
wife." You cannot cajole him from
his mood. He only stares at you, his
gaze hungry, his lips half parted.
"Kiss me," you say,
not meaning for those words to come out, not meaning to reach out and tug him
back to you, back down. Your hand finds
his, pulls it back to where he left off on your body. "If you want me, take me. I'm offering myself."
"Why?" He is staring down at you as if you are the
greatest mystery of the universe. His
hand does not move, although he is pressing it firmly onto your dress, the thin
material hardly a barrier between his skin and yours.
"Does it matter
why?" you ask.
"Yes."
You are suddenly tired of
this and you push him off the rock. He
hits with a splash and comes back up with a roar. The king of the deep is definitely not
amused. Leaping out of the water, he
lands on his feet before you, water pouring off him, onto you, like some
ancient ritual of the sea.
You arch your body. "If you want it. Take it." You are unsure why you are doing this. Is it
just that you will not say that you want him?
That you cannot say it?
He pulls you to your
feet. "Tell me why."
"I haven't been able to
stop thinking of what you said."
"You lie again."
"Okay." You try for truth this time. "I...I'm stuck in a place that I don't
like."
His eyes soften. "That I believe." He touches your face, his fingers leaving a
trail of salt water. "I'm not the
only one who would like to get you unstuck.
Why me? Why now?"
"Because
you are here. Because now is when you are here." You move closer to him. "This island has nothing to do with the
League. This water has touched it for centuries. Your water, Arthur. Atlantis and
"And
nothing to do with Kal."
"I didn't mention
him. You don't need to either."
He shakes his head.
"Arthur, under the
lasso's spell, you didn't say you loved me.
You only said you wanted me. And
that's what I need. That's what I
want. Your desire. Why are we talking about this?" Pressing up against him, you let your body
try to convince him of the futility of speech.
He moans. "The lasso came off too soon,
Diana. I do love you. You're my friend; we've been fighting
together too long for me not to care about you."
"Just don't say you're
in love with me."
"I'm not."
But you can see in his eyes
that he's lying. You turn to walk away, to
jump back into the water and wade to shore, leaving the king of the seven seas
alone in his domain. But you take one
step, and he grabs you and pulls you close, leaping with you into the sea,
carrying you far from the Sirens' Stone, far from the island.
You could fight him, but you
let go, let him carry you away. When he
stops, when you float together under the gravid moon, you don't say a word as
he pulls you closer to him, your back against his chest. You can feel that he wants you, but he just
holds you, his lips occasionally touching down on the back of your neck.
You hear the sounds of the
sea all around you as first one, then another of his creatures ventures near to
pay homage. Fish peer at you. The interloper, their eyes seem to say. But they move away, as if respecting his wish
to have you near him.
You float forever before you
realize you are crying, adding more salt water to his already colossal kingdom.
"You can have me,
Arthur," you say, but the words come out broken.
"I think this is as much
of you as I'll ever have, my love."
His voice is gentle. It makes your heart turn over, and you wish
that you could make yourself turn over, that you could kiss him and not imagine
dark hair, and eyes that look more like the sky than the sea. You wish you could forget Kal.
But you can't.
"He doesn't deserve
this. I'm not sure he even wants this,
Diana." Arthur's tone is very even,
as if he is trying not to upset you.
"He loves you; we all know that.
But I don't think he expects you to wait."
"I'm not waiting," you say, but
you are. You're waiting for life to
change, for things to change, for Kal to let go of your heart just enough for
some other man to squeeze inside.
"Okay." He turns and kicks softly, carrying you back
to the island, to your home and your bed where you will sleep alone and dream
of a man whose bed is not so empty.
"No." You turn violently, more violently than you
meant to, kicking Arthur away by accident.
He recovers instantly,
swimming back to you, but staying out of range of your feet.
"I won't," you say.
He misunderstands. "I'm not going to...we're going back in,
Diana."
"No, we're
not." Then you grab him, pulling
him to you. Your lips meet his this time,
you touch him first, and he stiffens in surprise.
"I want you too,"
you say, letting him hold you up as you pull your dress up, and somehow pull
his pants down, dragging one pant leg off him entirely before wrapping yourself
around him, and onto him.
His eyes close and he says,
"No, Diana, not like this."
But he is moving and kissing you, and his hands feel sweet on your
body.
You give up trying to set the
pace, let him do it, and it's a good thing--he is used to the water, doesn't
fight it the way you have been. His
motion sends you skimming gently over the water as he shows you what it means
to make love.
You start to cry, from relief
and from sorrow. You are giving up on
Kal. This means you are giving up on
Kal.
Arthur licks your tears
away. "My princess," he
murmurs, his lips touching down tenderly on yours. "I do love you, Diana."
And it is what you need to
hear now--that this is not just revenge or a scrubbing of the heart. That this means something
else, something good and strong.
He loves you. You love
him. You tell him so. It's not a lie. You do love him--you're just in love with
someone else. Neither of you feels the
need to point out the distinction.
You bob together gently in
the water, kissing softly, and you hope the sounds he made you cry out did not
carry well over the water.
But he is smiling gently and
whispers, "Everyone will want to swim out here now."
The Sirens' Stone is looming
above you and he lifts you onto it, joining you as before, lying on his side,
staring down at you.
"Are you all
right?" he asks.
This time it is you who is
tracing his body; it is you who lets your hand linger on his chest, over his
heart.
He smiles, then
he looks down at his pants, the one leg still trailing off the rock.
"Tomorrow, wear
shorts," you whisper as you pull him to you again.
And he smiles. A smile nearly as bright as
the moon.
FIN